Missing my grandma

Well, it's been a tough few weeks for me.

I keep thinking of things I would have normally shared with my grandma, had she been here. It's not that I don't know she's watching over me, it's just...well, it's not the same.

I know that she's in Heaven with Grandpa & my puppy, Hunter, but especially today, I just want her here . I want to tell her about the big snowman Robert, Ashley & I built. I want to tell her about the books I saw at Costco that reminded me of the last one she & Grandpa bought me. I want her to see how big baby Tristan is getting.

At any rate, I know where she is, I just miss her a lot.

Dreary days....

Well, as most of you know my grandma passed away on Sunday morning, November 30th at 3:15a.m. This is truly a blessing, as she is not in pain anymore.

Honestly, I'm not struggling with tears or a flood of emotions, but I am just so tired lately! I think my body is trying to fight off some bug or other, because this morning I woke up all congested and feeling like crud. It even made me late to work. Ugh. I hate that. Generally though, I am just really stressed about school and church stuff. It's not that I have too much to do, it's just that I'm under a time crunch, and I'm not feeling great, which adds to my stress.

I was also recently informed that my dad needs to move out of his house, because my uncle wants to sell it, so I need to find time to help my dad with that.

It's just a really not-so-great time for me right now, and I want to just stay in bed all day, but I can't. I can't let others deal with my responsibilities, I can't push things off on others; I need to live my life and fulfill my commitments. Normally, that's no problem for me, but I just feel like I've been given too much to handle in a short amount of time.