Long days to accomplish big goals

So today, I am working 8-5 at my regular day job in Everett, and then going straight to my second job in Smokey Point, to work from 5:30-9pm.

I know, it sounds really overwhelming, but honestly - it's fine with me. I have set some serious goals for myself, and while I'm not quite ready to share what each of them is, I'll list what they are concerning.

1) Financial
2) Scholastic
3) Organization
4) Time Management

Basically, it was time! I just HAD to do these things, and after lots of prayer, some tears, and talking it through with a couple people for wise leading, I've just decided that this is what I need to do.

Also, I have found that I've abandoned my accountability to-do lists with my friend more and more, and we both need to do more helping one another with that.

Beyond these things, I'm also trying to do more cooking. For heaven's sakes, I'm going to be Mrs. Robert Crombie soon! I need to domesticate myself a little!

Missing my grandma

Well, it's been a tough few weeks for me.

I keep thinking of things I would have normally shared with my grandma, had she been here. It's not that I don't know she's watching over me, it's just...well, it's not the same.

I know that she's in Heaven with Grandpa & my puppy, Hunter, but especially today, I just want her here . I want to tell her about the big snowman Robert, Ashley & I built. I want to tell her about the books I saw at Costco that reminded me of the last one she & Grandpa bought me. I want her to see how big baby Tristan is getting.

At any rate, I know where she is, I just miss her a lot.

Dreary days....

Well, as most of you know my grandma passed away on Sunday morning, November 30th at 3:15a.m. This is truly a blessing, as she is not in pain anymore.

Honestly, I'm not struggling with tears or a flood of emotions, but I am just so tired lately! I think my body is trying to fight off some bug or other, because this morning I woke up all congested and feeling like crud. It even made me late to work. Ugh. I hate that. Generally though, I am just really stressed about school and church stuff. It's not that I have too much to do, it's just that I'm under a time crunch, and I'm not feeling great, which adds to my stress.

I was also recently informed that my dad needs to move out of his house, because my uncle wants to sell it, so I need to find time to help my dad with that.

It's just a really not-so-great time for me right now, and I want to just stay in bed all day, but I can't. I can't let others deal with my responsibilities, I can't push things off on others; I need to live my life and fulfill my commitments. Normally, that's no problem for me, but I just feel like I've been given too much to handle in a short amount of time.